THAT'S IT!

[kragore]

I'm Done!
I'm retiring from freelance, and there's NOTHING anyone can do to stop me at this point.
I want my life back.
I don't care how much money you offer me, it's not worth the time, headaches and anguish.
I'm not a starving college student any more, I don't need the work. The portfolio pad is nice, but trust me, working for The Four Letter Company, not necessary at this point.

I'm winding up the Techno-phobe Chocolate Woman Website, and the crazy Pro-Bono After School Programming Brochure, and
That's.
It.

I want to come home and not feel guilty about "wasting" my time having to take the dog for a walk. I don't want to have to stare at a clock, knowing that I'm blowing through my bed time in order to get some person's "URGENT" request fufilled. (You ain't bleedin', and no one's dieing. It ain't urgent.) (speaking of which, it's past my bed time now...)

I'm tired to trying to explain web rules to people who will Never Get It. I'm tired of fighting and kicking and yelling and going to bed, and waking up and doing it all over again the next day.

I want my life back.

I want my life to slow down.

I want to enjoy the rest of the summer/fall, and just.
slow.
down.

- k.

Comments

[pelgar.livejournal.com]

{sings} slow down you move too fast...

Bitte langsam Frau Boese...

[wyldehunt.livejournal.com]

Take a deep breath. Hold it. Now release it. Now, gather yourself up, do the nighttime hygeine thing, then crawl into bed with the SO. At this point, you are on your own. Either get some much needed sleep, or find another way to unwind. Like a sudoku puzzle. That's how everyone unwinds in bed, right?

If the freelance stuff is bothering you that much, finish all outstanding projects and shelve it. You have a regular 9-5 now and aren't starving. Walking the dog is not a waste of time. Staying up past your bedtime not having fun is a waste of time. See? Fun good. Stress bad.

Set a goal of having some fun. Tomorrow, maybe come home and just HAVE FUN... try it. You might like it, and your life expectancy and quality will vastly improve. But you knew that I bet. You are just being nice and stubborn, even if it kills you. Everybody admires a martyr, no one wants to be one. Think there might be a reason? You are being a martyr taking on too much at once. You are draining all the joy out of your life by getting too stressed and tired.

By the way, this is a case of do as I say, not as I do. I'm gonna play the hypocrite card for now ;)

YAY!

[illustrator.livejournal.com]

come to the dark side!!! come play over here in the land of non-guilt where the stupid people do not go!!!!

it's WAY better on this side of the fence, but i will tell you, it took me about 2 weeks of detox to actually let go of all the anxiety, even after i had stopped doing any more work. .

Re: YAY!

[metabomber.livejournal.com]

True story. I had watched mt wife get up and make something to do for the first week or so after she shelved her freelance for a bit.

Dog and Woodchuck Cider seem to be a fine distraction.

[shu-al.livejournal.com]

Applause!

[cointeach.livejournal.com]

If the Four Letter Company is enough to support you, I agree wholeheartedly that your quality of life is far, far more important. Downtime for the win! :)