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Yay, stress reactions
Jun. 20th, 2013 04:52 pmRed is not well, and is at Tufts where I'm sure they are going to promise to fix him for a fee.
They already started to throw around numbers with lots of 0's.
I feel ill.
The visceral reaction I've had to it all - and the cool, paced, unemotional recount of the medical history and dates and medication names - it came back easy. So easy.
And I'm sitting in the parking lot shaking because NO. I do NOT want to do this again. I know I'm pretty good at it. I know I can manage difficult animal medical situations. But FUCK IT ALL.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
That is all.
They already started to throw around numbers with lots of 0's.
I feel ill.
The visceral reaction I've had to it all - and the cool, paced, unemotional recount of the medical history and dates and medication names - it came back easy. So easy.
And I'm sitting in the parking lot shaking because NO. I do NOT want to do this again. I know I'm pretty good at it. I know I can manage difficult animal medical situations. But FUCK IT ALL.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
That is all.
